I'm speechless and overwhelmed today. I insisted to myslef that I did not want to spend the day weeping...I even planned a Celebration of Life gathering tonight in order to focus on joy. Alas, so far today weep is exactly what I've done. Good tears. Tears that express how much it means to know that others share in your sadness. Tears that remind me how much she meant to so many. Tears that bring comfort just knowing that we are all on the journey together...and that it is in remembering that we move forward in hope.
This picture brings up so many memories. Triggered by that smile, the jacket, those glasses, the deck and then all the things that those remind me of. The past few weeks have been very challenging for Kate and I after her Grandfather passed away in early October. I think I felt the grief in our house was almost too much to share. But sharing in our experience allowed for some wonderful remembering, lots of crying, and gave us both the unique ability to smile through the tears to truthfully say, "I know just how you feel."
So thanks to those who posted in our stead, we were silent participants this time around.
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A year... I am reminded of a saying that she used to say about losing my Grandpa..."it doesn’t get any easier, it just gets different"
This picture brings up so many emotions, pain, love, hurt, happiness... all in one moment.
I am grateful that while she is no longer with us, she is very much alive.
Any time I pass a hydrangea and explain to someone that you can change the colors by putting coffee grounds in the soil.
Any time I carefully avoid walking under a ladder on the sidewalk.
Any time I think to myself while killing a spider – damn it’s going to rain tomorrow.
Any time I get up in the morning and have my coffee watching a red sunrise and think to myself “sailors take warning.”
She is with me any time…and all the time and I am SO THANKFUL for the time she and I had together.
I'm speechless and overwhelmed today. I insisted to myslef that I did not want to spend the day weeping...I even planned a Celebration of Life gathering tonight in order to focus on joy.
Alas, so far today weep is exactly what I've done.
Good tears. Tears that express how much it means to know that others share in your sadness.
Tears that remind me how much she meant to so many.
Tears that bring comfort just knowing that we are all on the journey together...and that it is in remembering that we move forward in hope.
This picture brings up so many memories. Triggered by that smile, the jacket, those glasses, the deck and then all the things that those remind me of. The past few weeks have been very challenging for Kate and I after her Grandfather passed away in early October. I think I felt the grief in our house was almost too much to share. But sharing in our experience allowed for some wonderful remembering, lots of crying, and gave us both the unique ability to smile through the tears to truthfully say, "I know just how you feel."
So thanks to those who posted in our stead, we were silent participants this time around.
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